Get Better Not Bitter

Hi,

I'm back! This blog has reignited a passion for writing that I forgot I had. I had always been told what to write in school, so this is making me quite happy. I get to choose what I write now! All the support is much appreciated.

Thought of the day? Don't feel sorry for yourself...for too long. :)

Each day that I wake up, I walk upstairs to find one of the most beautiful women that I know. She is a measly 105 lbs and wears a hat to cover a head that was made baby smooth by cancer. She has tubes hanging off from her chest and stomach and has turned our home into a makeshift pharmacy, but I find her to be breathtakingly gorgeous.

My step-mother was diagnosed with leukemia late last year, and it spread through her quickly. What we once thought was a manageable disease became a frightening beast that took over her body. She has been down a long road, but she is at home trying to recover after a bone marrow transplant. My step-mother has every single reason in the world to feel sorry for herself. She could easily lie on the couch each day and complain about the fight she faces--the fight for her life. What do I get when I walk upstairs? I get a smile. I get laughter. I get this tiny lady trying to do dance moves with me in the kitchen. I get a lady who is pumped to watch Dance Moms with me after taking another painful injection. I get a lady who asks me how my day was and what I did. I get corny jokes. I get happiness. I take away inspiration and an appreciation for everything and everyone that I love.

Don't feel sorry for yourself. Stand up, put your shoulders back, and move forward. Life will not always hand you what you want, but you can make it into what you need. Don't worry about things or people who don't deserve it. Don't stress about things you can't control. If you mess up, let it be. You can't change the past. You can control how you deal with it. Appreciate. Appreciate. Appreciate. Value the little things. Just enjoy what you've been given. If my step-mom, a person who had her life flipped upside down and almost ripped away from her, can do it, I know you can, too. Life is all what you make it. I see that now.

Just be happy.

Go do good things,

BT